I’ve had this dream of being a professional actress ever since the time in middle school when my brother hit me in the face, and I used my eyeshadow to “enhance” (i.e. create) a black eye. You know, so I could better illustrate how much Drew’s actions hurt me. So, the eyeshadow was a kind of metaphor for the bruising that took place in my heart.
Yeah, I’m not buying that either.
But, my parents did. And I think my big brother is still on restriction…at 35-years-old. Hey, dad, you can pull Drew’s Nintendo out of the closet now. I’ve forgiven him, and my eye has finally healed.
This is actually the first time I’ve ever told anyone that story. Cat’s out of the bag, I guess…
I’m SLIGHTLY dramatic.
[Dramatic? That’s downright psychotic!]
I forgot where I was going with this—lying, makeup, restriction, acting…oh!
I always wanted to be a professional actress.
I dreamed of the day I would step foot on a Broadway stage or onto a movie set. To put all those years of makeup artistry and melodrama to good use. And, naturally, I would have a fan club. And I’d learn to be humble about it. Because it just goes with the territory.
“Ugh. I wish people would stop obsessing over me so much. I’m just a regular person like anyone else! Seriously. …I’m going to Google myself again.”
This dream of mine (the acting part, not the famous part) is something I’ve never really hung up completely—even with two kids, a husband and a beta fish. Not that the fish is holding me back entirely, but who would feed Gill while I’m bouncing between New York and L.A.? WHO?
And that brings me to this whole blogging business. Sure, I create vlogs, but I’m not a professional actress per se. Any more than Grumpy Cat is a professional model. I’m not a columnist or a professional writer per se. In fact, I’m not a professional anything. Per se.
[I don’t think she even knows what per se means. There’s no way she’s a professional writer.]
So you can see why it is difficult to explain to people what I do “for a living.”
Stranger: “So, what do you do for a living?”
Me: “Oh…well, I’m a mom. I have two toddlers. So, that’s like two full-time jobs right there. I also have this blog thing, and I make videos and upload them to YouTube. Wow…that sounds so middle-school when I say it out loud. Basically, I’m a professional blogger.”
Stranger: “Huh. [Loooooooong pause] Interesting.”
Me: “Yeah, I know it’s slightly unconventional, but…that’s me! SLIGHTLY unconventional.”
Stranger: “A professional blogger, huh? I didn’t even know that was a THING.”
I might as well just tell people that I’m a Professional Unicorn Jockey. It seems more legit.
But despite this seemingly fictional career choice, I have received an unbelievable amount of support from my readers. Especially from one reader who is now the president of the Katy in a Corner Fan Club.
[There is NO way that actually exists.]
Okay, so I don’t have a fan club. But IF I DID, I know exactly who I would nominate as the president.
(I asked my brother, but he respectfully declined the offer.)
This particular reader—we’ll call her Joy—was introduced to my blog through her aunt and uncle who are friends of ours from back home (Georgia). We emailed back and forth a few times, and I found out that she works no more than 15 minutes from our house. So, I asked if she’d like to meet for coffee. Joy is a Juvenile Officer—I know!—and mother of three who took time out of her busy day to meet me at Starbucks and talk about how much she loves my blog.
And I didn’t even have to pay her.
We’ve met several times now and formed a mutually-beneficial friendship whereby we both talk about me incessantly.
[Oh wow. Maybe she DOES belong in Hollywood.]
In all seriousness I’m starting to think that this whole blogging business is way more gratifying than an acting career. Because it’s personal; it’s interactive. I write, you read, you comment, I comment, and we connect. I learn about your families, your kids, your fears, your struggles and your triumphs. Sometimes I get to meet the people who have “followed me” through some of my toughest times. Many of you have shared your lives with me through personal messages, and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to tell you how much that means to someone who spends her days wondering if this blog seems like one, big me-fest.
Like I should rename it Katy in a Corner Talking About Herself.
Or Katy in a Corner Googling Herself.
God knows that my desire is to become less me-minded and more others-minded. And this blog has—in a very unexpected way—helped me do that. Because you’ve allowed me to connect.
Joy, if you’re reading this (and I know you are, you loyal friend you), I just want you to know that your encouragement has meant the world to me. It keeps me blogging. You’re a wonderful reader, and you’ve become a true friend.
Also, just so you know, my mom actually made me return the candy bar I stole from the grocery store when I was 5. Because I KNOW that’s why you really befriended me.
Please don’t arrest me.
I have a great fear of bathroom stalls with no doors.
Giveaway Winner Announcement:
I do want to say one thing about giveaways. I make VERY sure these are fair, so if someone comments more than once on a giveaway post, only one comment is counted. Also the winner is chosen at random through a plugin I installed on my blog.
So, without further adieu, the winner of the Morganizing giveaway is Amanda (there were two of you, so please make sure you’re the Amanda who left this comment):
“My favorite clothing item is a hot pink pair of skinny jeans that I wear anytime I can think of an excuse to go out. And let me tell you that I make the jeans look even more fabulous when I drive my mommy van that may or may not smell like sour milk and dirty diapers.”
Congrats, Amanda! Please send me a message to claim your prizes!
I love you Katy! Although next time when we get together we have to talk more about me. Between the 2 of us I am the far bigger star! (LOL!)
juliebooliefeefifoflooly Julie Boolie Fee Fi Fo Fooly, I will humbly admit that your stardom far outweighs mine, and I will gladly take any opportunity to talk more about you. 😉 You’re awesome, Julie!
Oh Katy, where do you come up with this stuff!! I don’t think I ever knew the black eye was make-up! What else are you going to reveal!!!
Katy’s Mama Where do I come up with this stuff? Like melodrama and? I have NO idea. 🙂
Katy! I still love your blog, and though my summer has been so busy with a baby boy turning 1 and lots and lots of family visits (a ten day visit), with my whole family, all of them…did I mention 10 days?? And now we’re in the 2nd wave of company. Just have me commited. But anyway, great posts as usual! This is so totally random but the other day I thought of you and your blog because Starbucks has a new blend of coffee called Kati Kati and I just laughed to myself thinking somehow, she could incorporate that into one of her videos. Anywho, great that you have kept blogging. I love following and you seriously always make me do one of three things: laugh, shake my head in agreement, or shake my head as in, “oh crap, this is what is just around the corner for me as a mom of a 1 year old.” Haha, as always thanks for what you do!
Karen
mustloveleftovers.com
That admission of guilt would have come in handy 20 years ago and I wouldn’t have missed all of my friends 16th birthday parties. Why stop with that one little white lie? Why not reveal to the world all of the manipulations you concocted to keep me on restriction and you in the good graces of our unwitting parents. I guess I’ll take what I can get as I enter my late 30’s. It looks like I’m coming to the end of my restriction days as I will get to date again when I turn 36. I’m counting the days, WOHO!!! As far as the narcissism goes, I recently read, “true humility is not thinking less of yourself, it’s simply thinking of yourself a little less.” I just thought your readers, cough, cough, YOU, might get little bit out of that!
@Drew Hinesley Ah, well…at least you’re not bitter about it. Water under the bridge, brother!
Ah sibling rivalry…one time when I was young, young enough that me and my brother, who’s 4 years my junior, were in the bath tub together, I decided to embrace my inner-actress and slap him across the face REALLY hard like they do on TV just to see how it felt. He screamed (big baby) and I gave him the usual “don’t you dare tell Mom” speech before she rushed in and spanked me. What was his deal? I was giving him the opportunity of a lifetime to participate in the melodrama that is Lauren… … poor Eric…
@LaLa Siblings can be so SENSITIVE sometimes! 😉
Welp, I think it’s safe to say if Joy is your president of your fan club, I could totally be V.P. or something. LOL! I get a kick out of your site!!!